My Liver Cancer Blog

my first blog, a way for me to process my experience of being diagnosed with cholangiocarcinoma

about

I am a professor at a Canadian university. I’m married, have close relationships with my family, love my 2 dogs, love travel, and enjoy hiking (but day hikes only – not really into the hut-to-hut thing). I really hope I can get through this and do some major hikes again in the future. Thank god I also love reading novels (literary prize winners, but also espionage, detective, and sometimes Sci-fi). And thank god I live in an era of excellent tv. And thank god I love writing. There are many things I can still do that I love, even having cancer and being more home-bound than I would like to be.

If you’re new, I recommend starting with How I Found Out.

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Sometimes I look at photographs

from a year ago, or 2 or 3 years ago, and wonder, “Was the tumor growing in me then?”

What about then?

What about then?

It gives me an odd, even eerie, sensation to look at photos of some of my happiest moments of the last few years, and to think that this nasty little fucker might have been there silently growing inside me. It’s like suddenly finding out that I got photobombed, but on the inside, and the photobomber is this loathsome growth trying to take over my body. Those joyful times are still as joyful, and the memories just as piquant. It’s just that now I look at the pictures, and I can’t help staring at my abdomen, wondering if that little fucker is there.

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    Christina

    Lol-ed at your choice to describe that little fucker

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